A "Girlfriend" or "Carry-on"?
by Raquel Marcial
(Posted Dec 22, 2008)
Itís sickening how relationships
are subject social pressures and expectations - every single one. You become
something because itís socially accepted, and risk losing your sense of self and a
chunk of your personality when it comes to finding stability amongst a
patriarchal society. As a female in this society, itís difficult for me to be
content with what people choose to
label me when I become somebodyís "girlfriend". I am no longer called
by my name. I become this item
Iím not saying one becomes a piece of ass
(but in some cases this is disturbingly true as well). Iím talking about the lack of complete respect and
acknowledgement you hold as an independent female. It suddenly doesnít matter
what you really have to say. You are perceived as is this carry-on, when youíre CLEARLY
more than that. All of a sudden, you become less appreciated than when you
were single. Why is that? Is it because, as a single woman, you are "up for
grabs", so they "care" more about what the fuck you have to say? It
really is detrimental for an
independent female living in this world to be subject to these types of
social rules and codes of conduct.
Even though youíre the same, unique individual, the moment
you "couple up", youíre not going to get the respect you fully deserve.
"Oh, your girlfriend is awesome, man!!" and "Oh, arenít you
YES, I HAVE A FUCKING
NAME. AND IF YOU WANT TO COMPLIMENT ME, I HAVE A FUCKING FACE TO SAY IT TO.
When youíve been a couple for years, it is assumed that you
are SOCIALLY ATTACHED at the hip
bone! When the other is not present, a plethora of questions are raised
as to where they are:
"Oh, whereís your boyfriend?"
"I donít know. He has a life too. Weíre not the same person.
We donít have to be in the same place at the same time, ALL the fucking time."
Or, "Howís your boyfriend?"
"Yeah, Iím doing fine;
how are you?"
Thereís a serious problem when someoneís first question on
seeing YOU is, "Howís your boyfriend?"
or "Whereís your boyfriend", before even THINKING
about your well-being first.
It is even more horrific when people start
calling me instead of "the boyfriend"
to get to him. I once explained my loathing to a female acquaintance.
All she had to say was, "Itís bound to happen when youíre a couple!
I donít mind it!"
Of course, what she just told me was, "I donít have much
respect for myself, so I donít care!"
I was in a three year relationship with my best friend, and I
decided we had been living too long submerged in the social expectations of coupledom. We had an incredible time
together as "a couple" but we realized that we both didnít want what society had
coerced us into becoming. We sacrificed our amazing friendship, passion, and
companionship for a sense of stability.
You get put into this mold; A casket of your own true
identity. Everything becomes, in a sense, prosthetic so itís more pleasing to
the eye. You can no longer appreciate your time alone. You answer questions you
really donít want to. You accept other people's annoying behavior (and the loss of your identity) because it's expected if you are a part of a "couple".
I canít live like that anymore.